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Thursday, December 30, 2004

Firstly, to everyone out there : Please donate whatever you can to help those tsunami victims! Be it food, clothes, blankets or $$, donate whatever you can!

Quite sad to see so many people died in this crisis...as i read the newspaper/see reports on tv, images of villages, cities been destroyed totally, bodies lying everywhere that they have to resort to mass burial is a saddening sight. Especially during this festive period where Christmas has just ended and 2005 is arriving in 2days time such things must happen. 2004 is really a dark year for everyone. Let the world unite hand in hand and help one another to go through the one of the darkest time in the 20th century.
I read somewhere on cnn.com, the science section, says that this earthquake might have slow down the earths roatation and tilted the world axis by an inch! My god! Wonder what side effect will it have on earth for the long run.

Anyway...Happy bday to me! Thanks to those who send sms wishing me! yeah u guys roxor! Shall spend my bday in peace as tmr i'm going back to work :(

May god bless those affected by the tsunami

Gibson ranted at Thursday, December 30, 2004

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Hmmz..woke up just in time to watch soccer...if nt i'm be sleeping like a pig..weather too good..its been raining for the entire tuesday...

wanna say thanks to jacob for helping out with my com..even though he has 2 appointments he still take the trouble to come over n help me with it! thx alot man..

Spend the entire day with jacob fixing up my com...ard evening time Tricia came to fetch me as we had to attend a wake....met up with the rest of our clicks there...didn't stay for long either...as she has to fetch her little bro at Ahs behind my hse...since i was free accompanied her there only to realise we are too early!! lolx..sat in the car listening to all those young kids having their last 2hrs of their orientation camp...i wonder y wasn't mine as happening as theirs lolx...zzz
As i was saying..both of us pratically camp in the car...chatting away..haha kinda cool though...how many times can one actually spend their time chatting away in a car with someone whom they treasure alot. lolx...oh well...i'm juz happy tat quality time was spend although i had earlier plans to go other place..but in the end i think its worth it haha. *winks*

Anyway i'm going back to my soccer...start liao..shall end here

shall pick a quote out of tricia's quiting msg : life is like a box of chocolate, you will never noe whats inside till you open it.

Gibson ranted at Wednesday, December 29, 2004

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Review of 2004.

2004 was a very very very very bad year for me...i have no idea why but everything was messy, bad... i have no idea what word can describe it man. lolx. Made new friends, lost a few things here and there...financially wise still the same lolx..trying to survive...and now that have a stupid job that makes 2004 even a worse year.

January-April
This is the only period of time where i can say its been one of the most enjoyable time of 2004. Partly its because my r/s was improving on a daily basis...and more over its my last part of my shatec days before i go out for my 1year attachment. All these makes me cherish almost every thing. Was very very happy during that time.

May-September
This is part 1 of 2 of the worst period of time during 2004. Never in my life i could imagine something i put into so much is going to end right before my very eyes. Nothing was going well for me at that time...be it financially, emotionally, physically. Financially wise was due to well as usual her, my spendings and my other external factors. Emotionally wise..well need i say more? lolx. physically i was so garang in for my attachment that i work like hell during my 1st 2mths on the job. anything they throw at me i take and do. Made a few new friends during that period of time...not sure if i made new enemies though lolx...Well sucky mths for me.

Oct & November
I think never in my 21years of life i been so unlucky and depressed before. As i said earlier my life was going downhill...and during these 2 mths..it reach rock bottom! Maybe it even dug a hole and go even further down!. Firstly during november, my nightmare came true. I sank into depression that no one actually noes abt it mayb except for one or two closer frens. I wanted to hide myself from the world or end everything there and then so badly. I remembered one day during work when i was having depression, whatever i drink/eat i puke it all out that i had to take 1/2 day leave. It took me quite awhile to get a hold of myself. Worst of all...i met with an accident which i was lucky to be alive and kicking. Lucky thing for me i have the best friends in the world who tide me through this horrible month. Kudos to them!

December
December for me is a very hectic month due to my work commitment. I work non-stop like crazy..its so physically and mentally demanding. I have tide it all through already and screw this job man..due to management problem, i've decided to find a new place to work..only waiting for green light and off i go! Agian..i made a few new frens, found 1 or 2 old frens. Esp joyce yeah! we been accompanying each other whenever we are free haha...oh well...xmas is going to over soon, my bday and new year are coming. Yeah! I love December!

Overall...i can conclude life has its ups and downs, i just have to live through it day by day and experience it. I'm gonna use ms quiting msg agian, Life is good and Life goes on!

Special thanks to Mingshen,fishy,jacob,kian,chua,edo,joyce,tricia,koh,rachel,justin,joleen,cynthia, "her",ethan,amao,and many more friend and enemies out there who made my 2004 an eventful year! Hope 2005 will be a better year for everyone of us out there! Cheers!

Gibson ranted at Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Its 3.04am..and i'm getting sleepy..must be the heavy dinner/supper i had just now...lolx...decided to go out with jacob and andy for a quick supper before going to work...went down to eh..i oso dunno whats the exact road name..anyway we had scissors curry rice ( ka toh png in hokkien) 3 of us were too bloated to move lolx...thx to jacob for sending me to work!

Its been an eventful night...the fire alarm was activated by some indonesian girl who was curious about the fire panel along the corridor tat she broke it. Was running up n down ensuring everything was ok...didn't have much rest and didn't even start my own work till abt 2+. woot...anyway kinda scared after those tsunami waves and earthquake that hit our region. Feel sorry for those people out there...my heart even sank deeper after reading an email send by someone from Canada that their son and daughter have been missing since the tragic incident, and the person ask us to check our list whether did their children check into my hotel..i couldn't find any one by their name thus only can say sorry in my reply and my heart goes out to this family. Hope everything is fine for them. God will give everyone out there strenght to tide through this crisis.

Well as promise i'll do my review of 2004, but not in this post..its getting abit long..i'll post in a new post for it :D

A little prayer to those affected by the crisis out there...god bless.

Gibson ranted at Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Monday, December 27, 2004

Song of the moment : Some song by Chipmunks (si bei cute the voice lolx)

Yawnz...i'm getting tired...my back is aching...nothing much i can do now...ran into some problem at work which i have no idea how to solve...gotta wait till my supervisor comes in at 7am before i can proceed on.

i slept most of the time on Sunday..trying to put back all those missing sleep time..was surprise i could wake up for 5min gobble down my breakfast and went back to slp immediately. lolx..really zhu man...omg..one more thing..my com kanna some stupid error which i have no idea how to fix except to reformat. I'm waiting for replies in the forums so someone could help me out...if not i'm soo dead..

Joyce have been wonderful accompanying me throughout the night haha she and her webcam... :P anyway i will be posting a Review of 2004 soon prob during 28th morning yeah! Alot of things to say...haha..oh well...2004 is going to be over..hope 2005 will be a better year..and of coz...2005 is gonna be a tough year yet agian due to stupid NS.

I wonder how you feel about me......1 day to my 3 days miserable leave.

Gibson ranted at Monday, December 27, 2004

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Song of the moment : This is the last time - Keane

Hmm been searching for this keane song for quite awhile...kazaa mp3 are getting weird...either correct file name different song or the file is corrupted.

Anyway its getting boring and i'm getting stoner as the hr pass by...yawnz..damn slpy..onli slept for 3-4hrs for the day b4...had to wake up as my aunt was having xmas gathering at her hse...went there only to hear the sound of the MJ tiles tickling my ear..lolx..very gianz to touch mj but no time...haiz..anyway stayed there till ard 8+ before heading for home for 1 n 1/2 hr of rest and off to work agian...as usual...i'm at work now lolx...i feel like just close the door and sleep till 6am...but can't...haiz

Oh yah...frm my prev post..i said xmas was abit dull...like something missing...haha well i realise one of the things missing was actually a song which every year during xmas...i'll die die must listen to it...and timing just right...on my way to work in my dad's car, the song was played on 90.5fm. Its by John Denver and the muppets - 12 days of christmas.

counting down to my holidays.....2 more days~

Gibson ranted at Sunday, December 26, 2004

Saturday, December 25, 2004

Merry Christmas everyone!! My favourite day of the entire year is here! yeah!! and guess what! Bo-shen came over as his friend actually booked a room here! YEAH! haha i won't b lonely for this xmas..at least there is someone i noe of thats here! haha

Anyway manage to clear everything within 1hr..gonna take a 1hr break from now till 330 before i start my work agian! Its xmas!! i should relax!!

To everyone out there agian! Merry Xmas!!!

Plenty of memories flooding through my brain now...if only you were here with me..i'll share my life with you.

Gibson ranted at Saturday, December 25, 2004

Friday, December 24, 2004

YawnZ! Nv had a rest since 11pm..its the festive season...abit bz..alot of check ins and outs...oh well...its 6.19am now...few more mins and i'm off work...abit tired liaoz...after my slp..it will be xmas..i'll be celebrating xmas while working...sad life man...haiz..but oh well...shd i break the news to my supervisor that i'm gonna leave soon..i dunno..he is a very gd supervisor..the only prob is our stupid manager...how how

Hmm...its gonna be a lonely yet interesting xmas...coz of my job and coz that i been celebrating xmas with someone special for almost every yr..this yr..i'm alone n working..zzzzz...hw i wish i could spend it with the person in my mind now lolx...dunno why this yr xmas to me seems to be abit dull..i dun really enjoy it as much as the previous yrs...really miss those times where i could be enjoying myself out there..be it overseas or in sg...zzz

Wan to say this to someone (yes its u :P) : no matter what i'm juz a phone call away...i said b4 i'll b there if ya need me. dun feel sad or what aye. get back to ur cheerful mood! ITs XMAS!!

Last but not least...MERRY ADVANCE CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!

i really wan to spend xmas with you..but both of us r so busy sobs..hmmz

Gibson ranted at Friday, December 24, 2004

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Work stress is catching up on me...been covering duties/working for at least 13hrs for the past 3-4 days...didn't have much rest in between....until i can really sit down here n doze off while writing/chatting with someone. I juz receive a call from my fren saying that there is another job offer for me and all i have to do is just inform school. Really in a fix now...i'm unhappy abt the current job but i'm afraid that school doesn't allow me to change. Didn't have much time to think it over..i'll hope i'll reach a decision by tommorrow.

Anyway...i noe i'm abit paranoid for the past few days after been so low spirit, dis-organised. Very not myself..but wan to say to all of my frens..I'm ok!!! thx for your concern...though i may be bitching abt something which i noe its pretty much obvious i can't let go..but i noe its already 98% out of me already. Really!! trust me!! *winks*

wan to say a big big thx to someone after reading her blog which gave me a kick in the butt, didn't noe she would b unhappy becoz of how i responded to certain things..thx *hugZ* oh well... i'm gonna smile from this day onwards not onli for you but for me and everyone else! no more unhappy me!

Been spending my onli hrs at night going out to sempang with fishy and gang for past few days...we talk abt everything under the sun...well..u dun get anymore greater friends den this pple..u guys ROXOR!

All i wan for christmas is a new job n my ipod n you!! :P

Gibson ranted at Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Shall i quit my current attachment and find a new place to work at? I dunno...it seems to me its quite a trouble to go through everything agian...but i'm super duper unhappy abt my work now...its freeking long hrs at work...i dun even get to see/tok to my parents or even have my own lifestyle much....ZzZ i just have to wait and see....

Yesturday went out with cow, cow's friend derrick, fishy, jacob, and another guy to sempang for a drink...as we were drinking we realise another of cow's fren was sitting at the other table...my god..the world is getting smaller...lolx...

Anyway i juz opened my bottle of southern comfort..weee! Who going overseas please help me buy liqour i wan to add to my collection...nx on the list is Vodka and Kahlua...wan to do my Black Russian..hehe....going back to work in 7hrs time..sux man...for the nx 2 days...12hr shift...y am i suffering like this....haiz...i juz realise i have a small cut on my arm...lolx dunno how long has it been there....

I have no time to even touch my ps..haiz...i need love!! (lolx i sound so desperate lolx)

Gibson ranted at Sunday, December 19, 2004

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Finally i have the time to sit down and do my own stuff...lolx been working non-stop since 7pm the prev night...oh well...juz made a new fren frm shatec, koni. Unique name aye :P

Been pretty moody since i woke up...dreamt of her...dunno why oso....then guess what..my itchy hand had to click on her friendster...thinking that she still blocks off all contact so why not..no harm..but didn't realise she had actually release her profile...read through everything...even the other person...can see that she is very happy with him...i sat on my chair...stared at the screen for a long time...dunno what to say or what to do...but now i'm alright already.. like what fishy said...i have great friends beside me who will tide me through! Thx Fishy!

Want to say a big sorry to Joyce coz i made her worried for me this afternoon after giving her some weird responds..haha sorry sorry! ^oo^

Today is officially my off day!...gotta rest well n enjoy while i can..before i come back and work like hell agian...frm sat - monday 12hr shift each. sianz.

Its time to go kapo the cd frm my office..got the chipmunks singing songs! the voice sibei cute! lolx

I'm feeling so free...

Gibson ranted at Thursday, December 16, 2004

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Here i am, 4.16am in the morning, sitting in my office listening to perfect10, eating my cheeseballs! lolx...cool? YawnZ...damn sleepy man...

Work was sucky today...everything was abit in a mess...i had to dig out for the actual transactions before actually doing something to it..further more i had 1 very very big mistake which my colleague will kill me later when she comes in...help!

Thanks to Elynn for accompanying me throughout the night..lolx..without her, i'll prob be dozing off on my chair ahaha *winkz*...well...3more hrs b4 i knock off and another 15hrs more b4 i come back to work agian..hope tuesday night will be a better night for me...won't blog much for this entry...brain kinda not functioning well

Gibson ranted at Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Monday, December 13, 2004

ah choo! Argh...been having flu since this afternoon...eyes become ultra small -.- ...zzzz next few days of my week is going to be a tough one...3 days of 12hr shift..i hope i can take some time off today after finishing my night audit..prob request to end work 4 hrs early den the nx day the 12hr shift i dun claim ot....hope can *prays*

Anyway juz woke up from my nap...if for the wake up call, i'll prob be slping till next morning lolx...*winkz*...but still feel the same.....sneezing non stop

Oh well..another 20mins time b4 i set off for work..hope i get worse den can easily come hme early hahaha..(think someone gonna scold me liao) hmm...till then.

I think i am begining to seek your comfort.....

Gibson ranted at Monday, December 13, 2004

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Nv had such feelings before...i'm soooo sick of work that i had to drag myself off my chair. Really damn low in spirit now...no motivation or what so ever to work...no incentives...my off days are short...i try to enjoy as much as i can yet..it never seems enough...mayb i had overworked myself and need a long break from work..zzz the only days i can actually think of getting long leave is actually 28th,29th,30th. mayb i shall juz take it..dun care...the management team will settle their manpower themselves. haiz...

I'm in my office now staring at the wedding guests walking around my reception area...my boss had gone home...at least i have some peace...then agian..mayb not...i dunno what to do...zzz...life is so sucky..one moment i'm sitting at Holiday Inn eating buffet with my relatives, the next moment i'm working my ass off in some hotel. How i wish this blardi hotel would actually employ more people just to cover our shift work in case we take mc/goes on leave/off day. Sometimes i really do want to take/keng mc just to stay at home n rest so for the next few days/wks i feel more refreshed...but yet i can't...if i take..the rest of my dept gotta work ot...and i dun wan to be a bastard...argh....stingy management...lousy hotel sux sux sux.

I need your motivation...although i noe it may seems impossible for us...but...

Gibson ranted at Sunday, December 12, 2004

Saturday, December 11, 2004

woot! nv had such an outing since eh months n months ago....had a nice time going so many places in a day hahaa

ms came over, had some winning 11 before heading of to meet amao at parkway...realised he bought his new V3....ZzZ (wonder when i can change my phone/rich enuff to buy a new phone), he had to go for his driving lesson thus leavint 2 of us behind!..zzz.anyway...next stop me and ms went to east shore to visit fishy, only to realised she been discharged this morning! -.-" but thats a gd sign ahaha...wouldn't want her to be in there for long though, nx stop was actually a temple to pray to my grandma..its been almost a year since i visited her...been really busy with my daily routine...well...i'll try to make it a point that every few mths just visit her once..if possible...anyway...ms was with me..haha walking through from still road all the way into east shore....den all the way to eunos, where we waited for amao to finish his driving before heading down to catch a NATIONAL TREASURE with his buddy michael and a new fren. A show not to be miss! The plot is god damn nice! Love this kind of movies..kudos to Jerry Bruckheimer for another movie hit! All his shows are top class movies/dramas. To end the day, 5 of us went over to Paulaner Bräuhaus for some drink and lite snacks lolx!

Oh well...its been a very very long time since i had such a long day out! enjoying myself...hope it won't b the last! tmr shift change to 6pm-2am...nonsense shift hr..can't do anything kaoz!

Where are you...do u noe i am begaining to enjoy your company?

Gibson ranted at Saturday, December 11, 2004

Friday, December 10, 2004

yawnz!! off day is here!! always when i super free everyone not free..when i not free everyone super free! wad siaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

Dunno what to do now..hope joyce do call up n meet me arbo i will rot at home till i go bonkers!
haiz...

Gibson ranted at Friday, December 10, 2004

Thursday, December 09, 2004

weeee...xmas is here soon...new layout done..at last! :P...spend almost 2 n 1/2 hr siting here trial n error -.-"

anyway...one more working day to off day!! yay...sooooo damn happy nw...new layout...offday coming soon...hahaha oh well...fishy is in hospital...got a shock when jacob msn me n told me this morning...planning to visit her tmr after work though...hope she is ok liao...

If i have 3 wish...i wish all my friends,family member to have good health, i wish everyone is safe and sound, and lastly..i wish i will be the one to go through this tough time with you...

Gibson ranted at Thursday, December 09, 2004

Yawnz....i have no life at all!! work, go home slp, wake up, work agian...how sia!!! i need a new kick in my life agian...i need someone to drag me out of this torture! Help!!! Yesturday 12 hr shift...today 12hr shift agian! ARGH....

I wish...i wish i am the one in your heart....only you could bring smile to me during these kind of times... :(

Gibson ranted at Thursday, December 09, 2004

Sunday, December 05, 2004

December...a month of celebrations..joy..fun...surprises.for myself..set new goals...new resolution to the new year....yeah!!..i'm so glad a big burden on my shoulders have been lifted...i dun mind carrying another one though lolx!

Oh well..been working like hell for the past few days...12hrs shift, 9hr shift..zzz only thing i look forward is my next off day which will be 6 days time!! omg! arGH!

Surprise! Joyce, my long lost friend for almost 4yrs...yeah..we got back in contact with each other haha..been keeping each other company for the past 2 days....soo glad that she's around :D

Life is pretty much the same...work slp work slp work slp (btw i'm at work now wuahaha)...becoming boring...but what to do...oh yah..did i mention my birthday is coming! *hint* (Joyce if ya seeing this i wan my ipod!! :P)

Do you know i'm searching for you....

Gibson ranted at Sunday, December 05, 2004